We have long worn our scars
on the inside, hidden within ourselves
Doing our best to hide, to not allow
them show up on the outside
We didn’t want to be exposed,
judged, blamed and not believed
Our souls bear the marks
of re-membering what was lost
We have been shaped, girdled, silenced,
fragmented and shamed into looking good
It may be hard to speak out in a culture
where it is popular to believe you caused your own harm
If you have carried the thought that you,
Dear precious soul, have caused your own harm…
This is an invitation to lay it down for good
and to release your grip on self blame
Self blame cloaked as responsibility
has done more damage then we can imagine
Do you see how believing that you called it upon yourself,
can keep you from speaking?
The dominant culture keeps this idea in place
we know better, and can release ourselves
We have already turned our wounds
into teachings for ourselves and others
Are you ready to let go of this part
of the wounding you carry? Is it time?
When scars are only on the inside
they can take a long time to heal
We can choose to integrate, be witnessed,
be informed and take action
The colorful side of all of these stories
is that the scars are no longer only on the inside
Witness by compassionate hearts
brings color to the shadows which house the wounds
The light emitting from our colorful scars
illuminates the path for those coming after us
A warrior mark, a reminder, a tattoo
of teachings and stories to tell
We won’t forget, yet neither will we
be jailed by the past any longer
To those who would harm, we pray this colorful light
Reaches them too, so they may think again and heal
The freedom to self express is a basic
human right, and we claim this right for ourselves
We won’t proclaim the bright side
We will not dwell in the shadow side either
We see, claim and are authors of the colorful side
We have become She of the Colorful Scar
Signed with a hope for
re-membering our wholeness,
Shiloh Sophia, October 2018
You are invited to join the Intentional Creativity Community for a free online class and Red Thread Circle on October 21. Can’t join us that day? The videos are yours to keep and download so you can do it in your own time. We will have a completing call in November so you have time to do the process. You will be supported by Intentional Creativity Guild members.
Let’s gather together in solidarity across the world to cause our own healing to move to the next level…bringing healing into our own hands…
How much power do we really have to set ourselves free?
More than we think, I feel. Yet there is often a process if the feeling is to really create a change. It is more than just thinking about it. You have do actually do something more than in the mind. Ritual, creativity, movement, a circle….something to mark the change.
I have been thinking of you, and of all of us – and especially right now my sisters in the US who have been so impacted by the recent happenings. I don’t think I need to spell it out – regardless of what you think about it – it was traumatizing for most of us it seems. I could feel it and see it in ways I haven’t for a while. Like wow – where do we live? I looked at the images of the people involved ands sent them love – all of them. All of them. And I felt I had to DO SOMETHING to serve – hence Colorful Scars – a class for us as a community. I asked what I could do? I had already painted the painting above – and so it was clear – colorful scars it would be. Claiming our wounds and bringing beauty to them. Covering them in grace – not hiding – but lifting up.
I try to be mindful of sharing spiritual beliefs without assumptive behaviours which are so often rampant. Even just – ‘everything happens for a reason’ is a rampant spiritual belief gone unchecked that a lot of us don’t agree with. Including me. So in this cycle I am writing to you with permission to set yourself free from the way you have been carrying what has happened to you.
I share this writing and class for those who still think they are to blame for their abuse. This is FOR YOU. For us to heal.
With respect to those in the sisterhood that truly believe they agreed to their own harm at the level of soul, I hear you. And. What is true for you might be true for you. Yet I might add, do not assume it is also true for everyone else. This teaching is too common and in my view, assumptive and often unconscious.
Now, having worked with so many women I am a stand for freedom from self blame – and the idea that we caused our own harm as part of our path or soul agreement. Not that there aren’t times we have put ourselves in danger and harm’s way. Each story has it’s own arc of blame and shame.
I stand for a story where no woman blames herself for being harmed in ANY scenario.
I woke up this morning with the collective grief pouring through me. I thought, is there a bright side? And of course, the bright side is that the stories are being told and that hopefully those who do the harming will think again instead of become even more aggressive, which is often the case. Yet, bright side, felt too optimistic. Shadow side is obviously playing itself out before our eyes in the US and many other places. But the colorful side, is also here. Finding our freedom from suppression and silence – finding self expression. Why is this important – because if we are self expressed, we won’t bottle up the energy and turn it on ourselves.
Expressing it lets it out – and in that, changes it as it moves from within to the page/canvas/dance floor. We will talk more about this in the Colorful Scarsclass. Consider calling women together to gather with in person for this event in your home, studios or office. Consider hosting a red thread circle. The videos will be yours to keep and download but it woudl be wonderful to spend the day together on October 21 doing the work.
Thinking of you and however you process what you are feeling. Let us walk this road together in the best way we can. I am about to lead a Red Thread Circle in the morning mist and will be thinking of you and including you with us.